Consistently torn between wishing I could go back in time to tell past!me not to be so dependent/be the person I always was and keeping things the same, because I was put into situations which helped to shape who I am, regardless of how much I wish they never happened.

It's just really sad to see notes I wrote during that time period and to see how I answered questions and how I'd answer them. I want to give past!me a hug and a little push towards the people who would make everything tolerable.

To see some of his responses to the questions, I just think it's really sad.

It's sad how close people can be one day and then it's like it never happened; you can't talk about it anymore - all those inside jokes die, all the memories become almost tainted, a sort of experience where you can only smile sadly when thinking about.

It's sad that from that point on, you have to almost erase their existence in order to be okay. In order to move on, it's almost like you have to deny the relationship even happened, but at the same time, you need to acknowledge it, so you won't fall into the same potholes as before.

It's sad to think "right person, wrong time". It's sad to even think about meeting someone who wouldn't know you or want to know you as well as he did.

It's sad to think no matter how much personal closure you get, it will ever make it 100% okay.

It's sad to see a friendship crumble, because the relationship burned too intensely and too long, but neither person would let go, so we just held on til our hands burned and our hearts got scorched.

It's sad to know the innocence you had as far as how guys would treat their girlfriends is nearly gone. It's like to heal, you had to excise what couldn't be saved/healed and then you're left with a heart much smaller than what you had prior to everything.

I don't know - I'm in one of those moods. Facebook allowing easy access to all of these old comments/replies is a reason. Also because, without fail, before exams I usually go through some sort of turmoil like this.

I can't wait to meet the guy who can be the good experience I should have had the first time around. And saying this sort of stuff makes it seem like no good came out of that relationship, but I just want something permanent, tangible, and something I can claim. Just meeting a guy I think it's worthwhile to argue with would be a giant step forward.