Talking with you will always confuse me because you make my heart soar for seemingly no reason. Just talking about the future with you, even if the odds of it happening are one in a billion, makes me feel like everything is worth it, that you're never gonna forget me and that our friendship will always stand the test of time and distance.
I'm worried distance will separate us eventually, but knowing that right now, you envision a future with me in it, however improbable that future may be, calms my fears and makes me realize how silly I am.
I think you may be the truest friend I have ever had. Even if there's negativity in our lives, when we're together, we're like an unstoppable force of happiness. You can cheer me up so easily, because you have such a bright smile. The thought of you ever being hurt or ever being upset bothers me so much that I would set aside my own feelings to comfort you, even if that meant driving 40 miles to see you for only a few hours. I would drive any distance to know that you're okay and I think you might know this. I hope you know that.
If anyone would be the peanut butter to my jelly, it's you. Sometimes I worry that your girlfriend hates me, because of how our friendship is and I hope you're strong enough to fight to keep this friendship should she ever make you choose.
I always regret how I couldn't fight for you when you needed me to. I am constantly thankful that you're so forgiving that you would not only accept my friendship, but would welcome me with open arms when I was so cold to you. You inspire me. Being around you is like looking at the sun - I know if I look too long that I'll lose my vision, but you're so bright and I can't help myself. I know the risks, but I stay by you anyway. I know that I can't expect anything more than friendship and that these flirtations are just friendship. At the risk of my heart thinking they are more, I can't help but want to spend time with you, because you bring out the best in me, the me that is optimistic and a free-spirit in times of trouble.
When I lose my way, you always save me somehow with such grace and ease that you make it seem as simple as breathing. I wish I could talk to you more openly about what bothers me, but I cherish what time I get with you. I never want to taint a moment with my insipid curiosity or my weak nature - that's not the Jessica that you know. Maybe that means we aren't as close of friends as I'd like to think we are, but I can hope, can't I? I can think that we're such good friends that we don't have to discuss serious topics like love and disappointment and that we just pour our energies into being happy and enjoying ourselves, right?
I sincerely hope I can keep you in my life forever. I can't stress enough how your friendship has affected me, how you've changed me. I'll always be fighting for your happiness even at my expense, because you've given me so much more than I could ever repay you.
I'm worried distance will separate us eventually, but knowing that right now, you envision a future with me in it, however improbable that future may be, calms my fears and makes me realize how silly I am.
I think you may be the truest friend I have ever had. Even if there's negativity in our lives, when we're together, we're like an unstoppable force of happiness. You can cheer me up so easily, because you have such a bright smile. The thought of you ever being hurt or ever being upset bothers me so much that I would set aside my own feelings to comfort you, even if that meant driving 40 miles to see you for only a few hours. I would drive any distance to know that you're okay and I think you might know this. I hope you know that.
If anyone would be the peanut butter to my jelly, it's you. Sometimes I worry that your girlfriend hates me, because of how our friendship is and I hope you're strong enough to fight to keep this friendship should she ever make you choose.
I always regret how I couldn't fight for you when you needed me to. I am constantly thankful that you're so forgiving that you would not only accept my friendship, but would welcome me with open arms when I was so cold to you. You inspire me. Being around you is like looking at the sun - I know if I look too long that I'll lose my vision, but you're so bright and I can't help myself. I know the risks, but I stay by you anyway. I know that I can't expect anything more than friendship and that these flirtations are just friendship. At the risk of my heart thinking they are more, I can't help but want to spend time with you, because you bring out the best in me, the me that is optimistic and a free-spirit in times of trouble.
When I lose my way, you always save me somehow with such grace and ease that you make it seem as simple as breathing. I wish I could talk to you more openly about what bothers me, but I cherish what time I get with you. I never want to taint a moment with my insipid curiosity or my weak nature - that's not the Jessica that you know. Maybe that means we aren't as close of friends as I'd like to think we are, but I can hope, can't I? I can think that we're such good friends that we don't have to discuss serious topics like love and disappointment and that we just pour our energies into being happy and enjoying ourselves, right?
I sincerely hope I can keep you in my life forever. I can't stress enough how your friendship has affected me, how you've changed me. I'll always be fighting for your happiness even at my expense, because you've given me so much more than I could ever repay you.
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