To put a positive twist on my previous negative, even if it's completely selfish, immature, and silly:

Last semester, you know, the semester I wasn't devoting to you or us, I got all A's. I'm ignoring that Shakespeare class, because that was due to the teacher not liking me very much. My point? I'll do better in school, because I won't have any distractions. I'll finally get back to my roots and I'll be on my way to be happy.

I don't need to be dating someone to be happy. If anything, I've learned that while I'm dating someone, I can only be happy on some levels. I can't be happy by myself. I can't be happy with other people. I can only feel content with that someone by my side. Not having to depend on one solitary person to be my friend and my boyfriend? It's relieving and I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my chest. I'm not suffocating nor do I feel unnecessarily like I'm super inferior.

I used to feel that way, like I'd never match up with what you wanted. I realize now that that's silly. I didn't match up with what you wanted, but I shouldn't ever feel bad for not doing so. I'm me. I can't be anybody else. It's time I accepted that for what it really means and this is exactly what I need emotionally and mentally.

Let's face it, I'll need all the determination and focus in my tall body to go towards Nursing and all that it demands.

So, on a positive note, congratulations on your new girlfriend. I ain't even mad. I was, in fact, I was downright perturbed, but now? I'm lounging around, spending time with people I love, and I couldn't possibly be happier.

2011 has been such a great year for me so far and that trend won't be ending anytime soon.